Should I, or should I not?

There’s a price you pay for watering down the person you are

and it’s a bill you don’t see until the only people waiting on you are God & your loved ones up in heaven

In your last breath, you’ll have the last chance to look back at your life

But the difference then? There will be no chance to make changes

So whenever I am faced with, “should I?” or “should I not?”

I tell myself

When I am on my death bed

I hope I can say,

“I tried everything I wanted to try,

I did everything I wanted to do,

I said no to whatever I didn’t want to do,

I laughed at everything and nothing,

I cried as much as I needed,

I loved as much as I could,

I was honest about every part of who I am,

and I owned that like nobody’s business.”

My only dying wish would be that everyone wear color when they put me 6ft under <3